Last night was a low point for me. Rabbi was working with me on my Hebrew. I tried 'forty' times and each time was wrong. Even when all I had to do was repeat. Each word became torture letter by letter. I felt stupid beyond measure. All my prayer work all my singing? How could I have it so backwards? I wanted to go fetal. She wouldn't let me quit. I wanted to run away. I almost cried when I got to my car.
I love G*d so much and I am not a idiot? Why couldn't I grasp it. Everything started to seem hopeless. I was angry. I was emasculated. I was humiliated.
Oh G*d I pray this is the beginning of wisdom. It hurt very much.
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